... something like this has certainly one or another thought about me in regards to my children.
Everything began when we learned of the triplet pregnancy. It makes me incredibly proud that I had conceived triplets naturally. It had to have any meaning ... . When we the family and some close friends were told by our good fortune, the same know-alls on the spot. They knew how you had to behave, how you had to protect itself, as would be all that bla bla bla.
Even worse was when I due to cervical incompetence from the 22 Weeks had permanently in the hospital. Yes, I knew that it is imperative for the sole Best of the children was. but I hated that other specific my life. My big son alone at home with my husband, who worked and renovated our house. Thus, the grandparents took care of the boy, but not always the way I wanted it!
"And when the triplets are only there once, it will be so and so ...." Everyone knew it would be like and there again, my question mark: "Where are your big triplets, you've deprived me Or where else could you have accumulated such a rich pool of experience ????"?
over my life and my body decides others, I sometimes had the feeling. And this feeling did such a great Helplessness with it ...
And when the triplets were then really there, I was very glad that nobody was allowed in the NICU. Because I wanted my children to me. I did not want any one else looking at her or even touched! I was robbed of a carefree pregnancy, had my children are not allowed to bring in the normal way to the world and was eventually also have been incapable to feed them with my own milk (for the milk flow was not right, and stood within a few weeks due to the stress even completely), since I at least wanted to do for them now the only thing I could: Just be there for them, their little Hold hands, they have to lie on his chest and tell them, so Mom is there for you and fits on to you.
I had read so much about triplet pregnancies and births, I had been informed of any potential problems that brings with it a likely premature birth. I had a doctor about prevention and prophylaxis on and on therapeutic basis (by profession I am a physiotherapist) well-read and devoured all the beautiful and less beautiful experience reports of other multiple birth parents. I had lain long weeks in hospital and endure daily needles and lack of privacy and the price that I had three little worms to lie in three incubators in a separate room. And (sorry if I use that term) that "price" was just me and my husband of course enables him to enjoy.
I was convinced that I could most of it alone - I wanted to do it alone. I wanted to prove to myself and the world! Three small embryos had seven months earlier, nestled in my Unterus without supplying their own and then I saw it as my vocation, even without foreign intervention to protect these children and educate them.
I had thoroughly deceived, of course, no question. That was never create alone.
The first three weeks, When all three babies at home I have supplied complete alone. Day and night. And then I said to my husband that it would pop soon, if he would not even take a night shift. From then on, we took turns. But my babies were still sooo small that I wanted to except my son and my husband, midwife and the doctor no one ran to her.
it could have been brought nothing, for they slept and slept and slept and drank and slept .... .
also justified their fragile and delicate nature of all my excuses that they have not got on as many visits.
I Wolte my babies all to myself. I wanted them protected, they were yet so vulnerable. Only slowly were a few other familiar fragile in this circle. Finally, I needed help when Artztermine decency.
the road with the pram I had put in front of each child a large Mullwindel that no one could catch a glimpse.
Looking back, I was actually just a normal mother with a normal protective instincts for their children, with the usual narrow Gluck possessions. DAS also make other mothers who do not know that everyone grabs in the stroller!
was perhaps a bit of everything for me Döller, but eventually I had 3! Protect babies. So *****
today are the children now 1.5 years old and I'm always so. I ask the people still not to touch the children and to prevent verscuhe that we are at the center. Unless the children themselves in touch with other people, mostly children, are looking for, then I let them allow of course as far as possible, because they are supposed to be finally and social personalities.
hang our two daughters currently Sun so much to me that they literally crawl in me in, if someone else is. The whole thing micht proud and I enjoy it very much that I was so important for the two girls. Granted, it can also be quite annoying if you spend hours in this way is not to the bathroom, but the child tell a on this path, that is the most important person on earth for them. And for that, but this has all been worth it?
Yes, I am a bit komisch.zwinker. had
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